Everything yet Nothing...

25 in 50 minutes, yikes...

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5. I’ll tell you my first/clearest memory of you.

6. I’ll tell you what animal you remind me of.

7. I’ll ask you something I’ve always wanted to ask you.

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First off, thanks guys for your comments on my previous post, made me feel heaps better about everything :)

Now, to the business end of this post. It's been a long day.

Drove to Bristol and back, thats about a 5 hour round trip, the longest i've ever personally driven, and took the keys to my new flat. Typically the landlord hadn't done some stuff he was meant to and will be seeing him next week to get it sorted. Bought kitchen stuff, iron, vacuum cleaner, kettle, bookshelf and wardrobe and cabinet set for bedroom and ordered tumble drier to add to the future deliveries of bed and sofa. Set up TV, no arial signal, nevermind Virgin Media will be along next week to hook me up.

Going down next friday to set up everything and indeed to stay, job starts on the monday after!

I'm pretty tired, but very pleased that things seem to be going according to plan! Hope you're all well :)

Had my first face to face interview today for a job, if succesfull will have an assemsment centre to come. They said it;d be about and hour, but took an hour and a half, whihc I'm taking as good as they would surely have kept it short if they didn;t like me.

Got two more interviews for different companies next week, both in bristol. Here's hoping all goes well and I have one or more job offers sooner rather than later!

Hope you're all well :)

So, graduation day, last saturday:





...

Life begins here.

I have no idea what to do.

At all.

A qualification is soon at hand, but I don't know what to do with it.

All suggestions welcome!

So. Here I am. It's been a while, a while since I've presnted anything of substance at any rate.

I've been busy, on a variety of scales. I've been doing a lot of project work, I've been doing a lot of nothing, I've been doing some revison, I've not been doing much vis-a-vis talking to people.

I really have no excuse for not having kept in better topuch with people, none whatsoever. But right now is the final puch, right now is the knocking it out of the park. Right now is the revising, working hard, getting the goddam exams done, gettign the presnetations sorted and then...

Well then, is begining my life proper. Finding a job, a career. Maybe finding a girl and making a future. Life in general.

Problem is, I don't know what I want to do. I have no idea. Well, I have one idea, but I'm keeping that quiet for the moment.

I'm sorry that I've not been there for you guys more, I'm sorry that I haven;t been a better friend, and I hope that in the future we have an ever stronger relationship.

I wish you all the very best, keep safe my friends :)

I hardly ever post here anymore, but I do keep up with my friends on here, one of the most useful ways to catch up with everyones lives as I'm on MSN so infrequently these days. And, among other reasons, ( here's why. )

So yeah, thats the first draft of my conference paper based on my MEng project. Kudos to anyone who manages their way through the whole thing, either you're bored or insane, either way if you struggled through I love you for the effort! I'd like people to know that I haven';t just been ignoring everyone, I've actually been working most of the time.

Wookiefest was amazing! Yay!

I'm 23 today. Meh...

Hey hey.

So yes, that was a blast. Spent 14 days in Malaysia and 16 in Japan with my bro. Highlights below, pictures to follow when I can figure a good way of getting them online in such a way that they don;t loose all their quality and look shit (*Paging the Icelandic Goddess of Photos*).

Malaysia:

Kualar Lumpar - Awesome city, Petronas Towers are great looking as is the view from the KL tower.

Perentian Islands - Pretty much the most beautiful place I've been in my life. Basically paradise isalnds, after initially rocking up with no reservations to find that the places we'd been aiming to stay were all full and that there was no other boat home, my brother missioned it around and found us a place a whole lot better, cheap and the sea was all of 20 meters from our door. Watching lightning storms and the stars from beach chairs with the sea lapping at our feet and sipping a few beers was pretty incredible. Some bloody good snorkling was to be had around the isalnds, stacks of coral and varieties of fish. Kyaking around the islands was certainly a highlight too.


Japan:

Tokyo - A fantastic bustling city of neon. Stayed in the Shinjuku area, wolrds busiest station there, with 3 million people going through it a day, it was certainly bloody busy. Got a great view of the city at night from the top of the Park Hyatt Hotel, where part of Lost in Translation was filmed.

Kyoto - Incredibly beautiful city with amazing Shrines and Temples. Saw the largest wooden building in the world, or atleast what you can of it, as it's currently within a new stucture whilst being repaired.

Nara - Nothing says 'safe place to go' like a huge woodedn building sat inside of which is a 19meter tall bronze buddah in the middle of a wood, filled with skittish deer, during a storm. At least thats what I was thinking as we headed in on the train and the clouds gathered. Turned out there were fewer trees than I thought, a lot more deer, all very friendly (especially if you had food), but the building and statue were truely awe inspiring, and thankfully the storm stopped shortly after we got there, still got soaked though.

Kummamoto - Stunning rebuilt castle and grounds.

Himeji - Most beautiful of Japan's suviving all wooden castle apparently. We certainly agreed.

Osaka - Great aquarium, worlds laregst IMAX (supposedly, 20 by 28 m) saw a 3d underwater documentary, was beautiful.


Apologies if any of this is garbled or confusing, got in at 6:30 this morning after a 12 hour flight, predceeded by a one hour wait, a 2 hour flight, a one hour wait and a 5 hours and 45 minutes flight. I have no idea how much sleep I got during that, but if it was much over 3 hours, i'll be surprised. So I'm in some kind of odd state right now and think that driving the car a short while ago was prehaps a bad idea, especially as the car felt like it was floating. Although I don't feel tired I can envision waking up with my face in the keyboard at some point in the near future.

Hope ya'll have been well Postcards will have British stamp as are being sent from here, never quite manged to send them when over there!

Photos will hopefully be sorted by sometime tonight or tomororow hopefully, took almost 700, so should hopefully be able to find at least a few that are good...

A great loss. Goodbye my friend...

Shaun C was one of the very first people I met at OTFCC 2003. It was the night I got to the hotel and I got a call, it was Shaun asking if I wanted to meet up, I was tired but thoguht I'd be polite and go say Hi. Ended up meeting him in the lobby and chilling in his room for a bit just chatting about tf's and other 80's series. He was a great guy.

I saw him on and off during the convention and am sad that I didn't spend more time with him, now that I can never do that again. I remember him always being reallysmiley and happy, asking me how everything was going and if i was enjoying myself. And at the end he collaredme into having a photo taken with him. I need to find that photo and fucking frame it.

After that I chatted tohim on /msn and on the boards, but never as much as I could have. In all honesty I just never made time for him as I found him a little overbaring at times, which was me just being a dick. But I do remember having some great chats with him a few years back, to this day he is the only other person I've met to share my avid love of Sailor Moon.

And now he's gone.

That incredibly nice man, who always seemed to find something to like about people. That great guy that took the jokes in full stride. That proud man who always held his own. That fantastic guy who has been remembered so beautifully in this thread. Is gone. And I am sad. The tears have been flowing and I will be sad for much time to come.

I wish I'd made more time for him and I wish I'd been a better friend to him.

Thank you for everything Shaun. You, your family and friends are in my prayers.


Although I will not be at Botcon, let me know exactly when the pool jumping is planned for, I have a pool here and will jump into it fully clothed too if thats to be part of his tribute.


Goodbye my friend.

I am so screwed that i have moved beyond the mortal realm of screwed.

I am now in a place of sheer bollockedness that any description i could give would be pale in comparision to the real thing.

I have 12 days to basically write up my project, my dissertation, bachelors equivilent project.
I have 12 days to finish two (thankfully small) SLEASE assignments.
I have about 4 weeks to learn and revise and get to know my entire years worth of course.
I have no job lined up for the summer.
I have near zero prospects.
I know absolutely nothing.
Almost everyone is completely ignoring me.
I am being compeltly blanked by people that seem to view me as a source of help, but once it's given, I'm not even worthy of speaking to them more than once in several years.

Needless to say that this is all pissing me off. An awful lot of it is my own fucking fault, but the things that i can't control, that still act against me, no matter what I do, realy get to me.

And you know what pisses me off the most? I have a great fucking life. I truely do. But all I've ever manged to do is just fuck it up beyond belief.

But what really gets to me, what cuts right down to the bone, is the people that ignore me. People who only dain to speak to me once a year, when its in their own interest or if it suits their purposes.

If Bimma and Pete didn;t talk to me, I might start to believe that no-one on the face of this earth views me as worth while bothering with.

I ask simply because i've done it and was wondering if anyone else has managed to monumentally fuck themselves in someway or other through their own good intentions?

I'd never really come to terms with the fact that being the nice guy, solicited or no, doesn;t just let you help people, it leads to far more.

I don't regret a single time i've done anything whatsoever thats benefitted someone else, but I've come to realise that in my endeavours of good will, i've reached a little further than was neccesary, and compromised myself.

I hate seeing people in pain and suffering, be it physical, mental, spiratual or whatever, and feel a deep need to help. And through performing this help I find myself feeling a happier man, and i find myself being a man reaching beyond his sensible boundaries.

I'm no saint, not by a long freaking shot. I'm no good samaritan. I don't wnat anyone reading this to think that. I'm just posting this to see if anyone else has been in a similar situation, where you realise that your a 'help junkie', someone that can't help but help others, no matter the consequences.

Anyone else out there like me?...

First update in a long while, would post more, but need sleep, so i thought i'd post something completely ridiculous, like this:

Well its a few hours late, and i doubt anything will come of it, but screw it.

( my valentine postbox )

22 today. Yikes!...

Just testing out the new avatar, done in that yahoo avatar thing, expertly put into a LJ avatar format by Miss Tricky Disco, thanks Bimma!

I guess it looks a bit like me, certainly more like me than my south park version does!...

Get your own spectral analysis from Area 23®

Hmm, purple, nice!...

So i haven't updated in ages, thanks for the nudge tricky :), so whats new with me?

Not much, same old same old. Been drunk alot, been VERY drunk alot, been to th casino a lot, actually won quite a bit. Uni works not really happening, really need to work on this neural networks projct.

Well thats it really, i'll post more if i think of it! Hope ya'll are good :)

So my uncle died today, or rather yesterday as i guess it is now, heart attack at 44. Damn fucking shame, i loved the guy, moustache like mario and a great guy to talk too. Guess the funeral is sometime soon.

Hope you guys are good. finally got my phone this week, my numbers the same as i was, would appreciate your guys numbers again.

Keep safe.

Sometime on saturday, whilst we were all downstairs, some twats swung into my room from the firescape next to it, and knicked my laptop and phone, so i'll be ogne for a bit from the net till i can get things sorted...